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Theft is the one way that any single person can really aquire anything. Work, trade, money, all these means of aquisition are thinly veiled covers of personal loss. No one person actually gains anything through capital means, there is always an equal or greater loss, of one's time, other aquisitions, and even loss of SELF. If an individual truly wants to aquire wealth, in a material sense, one is forced into a path of theivery. There is no other option.
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Dec. 3rd, 2009 @ 03:06 am Have you finished your Christmasa shopping yet?
Hey December, I know you're a little over 2 days in, but please stop acting like a bratty September. It's not becoming of you, at all.

I'm feeling moist. I'm pooped. I'm at work waiting to feel less moist before re-entering the refridgerated production rooms to finish my work.

What else... Paypal has been a jerk again. Twice this week it sent purchases I made, that I intended to put onto my credit card to my checking account. Now I have to dab into my saving more than I want to for things I need to get this week.

Christmas and my tight ass budget are lame friends with drug problems that won't get out of my living room at 2:30AM.

Speaking of drug problems, I heard some great townie gossip today from the guy that works at the cemetary next to the pond. Apparently there's a father and sons squatting on the edge of the cemetary. The son is the cemetary guy's fiancee's ex. He told me the homeless son broke his hand, got addicted to O.C. from his RX, got on heroine, then crack. Now he's shooting and smoking up in a tent by the smelly dredged up pond, with his Dad. I don't know the Dad's story. I hope his kid didn't get him into hard shit. Well, I hope he wasn't into hard shit raising his kid.

It's hard to imagine what its like to be so addicted, that all I'd care about is getting high. I can barely deal with hangovers anymore to even want to drink enough to get a hangover. I don't know how I drank as much as I did 5, 6 years ago.

I mean, I still have money problems even with out and substance abuse issues. ;)

Speaking of, I hope my car doesn't need any more serious work done to it beofre I pay it off at the end of the summer. But I have a nagging suspicion that it will....
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Nov. 23rd, 2009 @ 02:40 am dream journal/ sunday night insomnia.
Went to bed way early for me... 11:30.

Woke up at 1:00 from a tense dream. Was playing a show at Dooley's loft, that band Pallet showed up, and this one kid from High School was setting up his drum kit. I went outside for some reason, found some file cabinet shelves to scrape together, and cops started pulling in. "Five staties" is what some one out there said. So I ran back in to get my gear, only to find it totally MIA, only my backpack is there, covered in so much dust it looked like it had been in the loft for 4 years.. Every one's gone. I go out to the elevator, in a dark hallway (people are running around trying to get out before getting arrested) and a cop stops me. Won't let me back in to find my gear, says "too bad, no one is supposed to even be in here." I tell him my friend owns and has keys, and he's not buying it.

Then I wake up. The bed room is hot, Jenn and I are sweaty and my mouth is dry.

Hour and a half later I'm still up, watching Metalopacalypse and Simpsons online.

And I'm hungry...
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Nov. 20th, 2009 @ 06:14 pm The best one yet-
What's next, attached noodz of African ladies offering themselves up to the benefactors?

ANTI-TERRORIST AND MONETARY CRIMES DIVISION FBI HEADQUARTERS IN WASHINGTON, D.C. FEDERAL BUREAU OF INVESTIGATION J. EDGAR HOOVER BUILDING 935 PENNSYLVANIA AVENUE, NW WASHINGTON, D.C. 20535-0001 Attention Fund Beneficiary, RE: FBI NOTICE WARNING TO FUND BENEFICIARY It has come to our notice that the International Monetary Fund (IMF),Central Bank of Nigeria/world bank has released 10,5M US dollars into Bank of America USA in your name as the beneficiary being for overdue Inheritant,Lottory,contract payment. The International Monetary Fund (IMF),Central Bank of Nigeria/world bank knowing fully well that they do not have enough facilities to effect this payment to your account, so they used what is known as secret Diplomatic transit payment (S.T.D.P) to pay this fund through wire transfer in order to complete this payment. We have decided to contact you directly to acquire the proper Verifications and proof from you to show that you are the rightful person to receive this fund, because of the amount involve. Note that the fund is in your name with Bank of America USA, but we ask them not to credit/transfer the fund to you yet, because we need a solid proof and Verifications from you before releasing the funds. In this regards, you are to re-assure and proof to us that the funds you are about to receive is a clean money by sending to us (Diplomatic Immunity Seal Of Transfer (DIST) to satisfy the FBI that the money you are about to receive is legitimate. ================================================================================================================================== Therefore, You are advised to forward the (Diplomatic Immunity Seal Of Transfer (DIST) document to us immediately if you have it in your possession, if you don't then let us know so that we will direct and inform you where to obtain the (Diplomatic Immunity Seal Of Transfer (DIST) document and send it to us in order the Bank of America USA to go ahead and release the money to you without any further delay. These Document will be issue to you from our Authorize office.So get back to us immediately if you don’t have the DIST document so that we will inform you the particular place to obtain the DIST document, because we have come to realize that the fund was Authorized by (H.S.B.C) Bank in London. ===================================================================================================================================== An FBI Identification Record and Diplomatic Immunity Seal of Transfer (DIST) often referred to as a Criminal History. Record or Rap Sheet is a listing of certain information taken from fingerprint submissions retained by the FBI in connection with arrests and, in some instances, federal employment, naturalization, or military service. These Condition Is Valid until 15th NOV, 2009 After that, we shall take actions on Canceling the payment and then charge you for illegal funds transfer from Nigerian government. ===================================================================================================================================== GUARANTEE: funds will be released on confirmation of the document. 1. Credit payment instruction: irrevocable credit guarantee. 2. Beneficiary has full power when validation is cleared. 3. Beneficiaries bank in U.S.A., can only release funds. 4. Upon confirmation from the world bank / united nations. 5. Bearers must clear bank protocol and validation request. ==================================================================================================================================== NOTE: We have asked for the above documents to make available the most complete and up-to date records possible for the enhancement of public safety, welfare and security of Society while recognizing the importance of individual privacy rights. If you fail to provide the Documents to us, we will charge you with the FBI and take our proper action against you for not proofing to us the legitimate of the fund you are about to receive. The United States Department of Justice Order 556-73 establishes rules and regulations for the subject of an FBI Identification Record to obtain a copy of his or her own Record for review. The FBI Criminal Justice Information Services (CJIS) Division processes these requests to check illegal activities in U.S.A We wait for your prompt response for more directives on my direct email (fbigovusa70@live.com) Best Regards, Robert Mueller, III FBI Director
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Nov. 13th, 2009 @ 10:32 pm Post-Birthday.
Current Music: Lord & Karlheinz
I was hung over this morning. Yup. Good ol' burning brain headache and a stomach full of silt. Just like old times. Maybe I'm a wimp now, but it sucked.

Last night was good. Went out with Jenn to the Dirty Truth, met up with Roxy and Tim, Dan W. stopped by then Brett R. Small group, but close friends. No one I see very often anyway, so it was super nice.

3 strong pints and 2 1/2 whiskeys made me get real close and personal with the living room carpet for a while. Jenn was a peach taking care of me. Coby knew what was up and wanted nothing to do with me. That's pretty funny in and of itself.

Got some good presents. A japanese toy synth from Jenn, a kit to build a ring modulator and book of electronic projects "for musicians" from my folks (that I ordered for myself).

Then tonight I went and dropped $70 at radioshack on miscelaneous parts and tools I need for these projects. Jeesh.

Now I'm in the flourescent dungeon that is WMUA. Since I took last night off, I'm convinced today is Saturday, but I'm here doing my show, so I have no idea what's happening.

I think I need more coffee, or something.
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Nov. 5th, 2009 @ 02:58 pm Take it as entertainment
Woke up to crazy anxiety dream today. Driving through western Pennsylvania tunnels to John Doe Jr. in Greenfield where tonight's show got moved to. Neal from Bromp Treb showed up with Layne Garrett (coz I didn't pick him up) and a gigantic sound system. Took a phone call on Jenn's cell phone from a girl she's jealous of about our breakfast plans. Then saw her in a cafe, giggling with friends looking at me, but they where on facebook, so couldn't tell that I saw them. Girl was wearing leopard print snuggie.

Woke with this song stuck in head:


Now: listening to Sutcliffe Jugend and getting psyched for Sunday's show in Boston.

let alone tonight!
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Nov. 5th, 2009 @ 12:26 am DIY or PYTDIFM?
I think I might just be bad at soldering, or something.

My 555 noisemusick maker kit has a short in it causing the 555 chips to heat up to near-death levels of hotness. Not good.

I want to use it tomorrow, but don't know what I can do to fix it.

Hrm.
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Nov. 3rd, 2009 @ 03:03 pm Nostalgia.
Current Location: Living room, 17 Adams
Current Mood: calmcalm
Current Music: Funky 16 corners blog.
A new fragrance brought to you by:
AOL Instant Messenger
Livejournal.com
Myspace.com
and the year 2004.
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Oct. 30th, 2009 @ 07:49 pm (no subject)
OMG I'm totally blogging about this!
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Aug. 2nd, 2009 @ 11:53 am crazy horses vs. lost johnny.



its a 70's heroin jag, man.
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Jun. 12th, 2009 @ 11:49 pm (no subject)
Summer feels great....

Started on my portion of the mural in the elevens bathroom this week.  Got a good portion done.  Should be finished up next week.  hopefully.

Laptop troubles again.  Now the power adapter died on me.  New one is coming in the mail, but can't be here soon enough.

Congradulations to Chris and Kara for getting hitched tomorrow.  Good luck you two!

Next week: Mellow.
Then the nexter week: two shows, one in Lowell.  Hoo-ah.  (Will?  Lynn?  Come out?)
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Jun. 9th, 2009 @ 01:56 am Happy Mother's day.















Stolen from whythefuckdoyouhaveakid.com
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May. 21st, 2009 @ 11:44 am The Double Squeezer
Current Music: Ganglians- Woodsist 12"
Beard zits are the worst.
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May. 19th, 2009 @ 04:46 pm Charles De Goal
This is an amazing band and everyone should go and download their discography right nouw:
http://sickness-abounds.blogspot.com/search?q=charles+de+goal
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May. 15th, 2009 @ 08:18 pm I've got big balls....

Healing from the surgery has been going well.  Dan C lent me ton of movies to watch.  So while I've been popping Oxycontin, I've been keeping pace with plenty of extreme Japanese Cinema and BBC's Tomorrow People.

I've had a couple weird pill dreams.  One involving an SST video compilation that doesn't exist, and a half way to sleep vision of  an alien in a flaming Madonna type halo-throne.

But, there has of course been some swelling that I've been back to the doctor about and got an ultrasound for today. Nothing that needed immediate attention and care, as the ultrasound tech told me.  But there was an awkward non-disclosure of info and lack of explanation of this non-disclosure that left me feeling at unease.  I guess I'll just keep laying down, not walking about as much as I had been and hope for the best come Monday when I hear back from the surgeon.  Discomfort persists. 

I'm skipping the Melvins gig this weekend because I don't think I'd deal with standing that long too well, nor with two long car rides in a small car.  Doctor's orders not to drive for two weeks.  I'm sure Brett will be able to record it for me.

But for tonight, I've made it up to WMUA for my radio show, right now I'm digitizing some old tapes so I can sell them on Ebay or discogs.

The weather has been as I'd hoped it would be, beautiful, though I'm not really able to get out and enjoy it too much.

Ho-hum.  I just wish I could be going for bike rides.
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May. 2nd, 2009 @ 11:34 am mundane, purile? devolving.
Current Location: Kitchen
Current Music: Mouthbreather
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Apr. 24th, 2009 @ 03:47 am Sweet phreeks
Using the Brahm Bos suite of TS 404, Hammerhead and Moonfish (all free-ware downloads) as production stations, and Audiomulch as live sequencer/performance instrument I've figured out a pretty rad way of making acid techno.

Pretty damned stoked that I don't need to go through the tedious programming steps involved with Moonfish alone, I can just cut loops and play them live on Audiomulch.

Now I have a good reason to stay indoors for the summer.
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Apr. 22nd, 2009 @ 03:51 pm Needs
Need to shower.
Need to do some painting
Need to Meet with Mr Blair in an hour or so
Need to Work tonight.
Need to go to the Gym.
Need money for surgery.
Need money for the label.
Need money for fixing my amps.
Need money for college.

Need a little more time.

Oh, and I got accepted into Umass' BFA program yesterday.  I really didn't think I'd go back there ever again, but I am.  At least I know what I'm getting into with Roseanne Retz' classes.
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Apr. 22nd, 2009 @ 03:26 pm Talking to Strangers
Current Location: Kitchen
Current Music: My TV Hurts; "I Wante To Play Volleyball, but My Legs Fell Off"
I found out about omegle.com a website that lets you chat anonymously with strangers.  I ended up chatting with this 16 year old Dutch kid living in Brazil named Fabienne.  I made his/her day just by listening and understanding.  I was kinda weary that it would turn into some pedo stake-out situation, but it didn't.  Just some lonely, frustrated teenager whose parent's work moved the family clear across the world.
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Apr. 13th, 2009 @ 01:07 pm Tone Forty 1-3
Current Location: home
Current Mood: coldcold
Current Music: The Smiths.
Paintings inspired by Scientology.  Heh.





Three of the five covers I've painted for a new CD.  I've yet to scan the other two covers, since there are on cardboard DVD cases and scanning images at 1200 DPI takes FOREVER.  Who knew?

I don't think the scans really do the paintings justice.

Brendan: wait till you see the other two that take a pick.

Time for the gym.

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Apr. 12th, 2009 @ 11:50 pm Yup.
Nothing very exciting lately.

Work has switched back to late hours.  I've been working until 5am lately.  It sucks, but as I'm getting used to it, I just need to remind myself how much I like the early morning and take the opportunity to go for nice walks in the waxing morning light.  I took a good 2 mile jaunt on Wednesday morning through back streets and industrial lots while waiting for an acclaimed pastry shop to open at 6:30.  I'm really enjoying living in Easthampton.  Sometimes I wish there was just a little more here, though, but if then, it's charm might be a little more tarnished.

Discovered the music of Zola Jesus this week.  I haven't been this excited by a band in a good while. In short: chick rock for the noise set.

Did Easter with Jenn's family today.  Traffic at the end of I-90 was shit, but the food was worth it.  Played with a pooch and got serious allergies.

And I'm prepping for the convalescence of my surgery (from my surgery?).  I've been collaging tons of panels to paint on, both to get ready for an up-coming art show in June, as well as to "spring clean" my studio and get rid of all the extra paper I've been stashing for this and not using.

I've got two nice new methods of painting I'm eager to use in series, as well as some more narrative/figurative ideas I want to work out.  The more I work, the more layers and levels I put into things.  Sometimes I feel like a real artist with lots of "Ah, hmm, yessss... this means..." type moments, as corny and possibly pretentious as that is.

And I finally have a meeting with the advisor at the Umass art dept late tomorrow afternoon.  Gotta finalize my portfolio in the AM.

Time for popcorn and some shorts from a Wolphins DVD.
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